THE STORM WITHIN

It's been quite a while since I last posted.

I've been on a deep personal journey with lots of challenges and life changes. A very quiet, intense inner time.

Now I'm back.

This blog post wanted to be written. Needed to be written. I felt absolutely compelled to write it. 'Taken by the scruff of the neck by the universe and plopped in my seat' kind of compelled.

Even though I have already written about this topic in previous posts, the changes are accelerating exponentially.

This is what came through me:


These are intense times. A time of quickening. A time of change.

So much has been happening and will continue to happen around the world - hurricanes, floods, fires and earthquakes. So much in upheaval.

What is happening around the world is happening inside us too. Everything is interconnected and everything is changing - fast.

Powerful and uncomfortable emotions are welling up inside us more and more as we deal with our worst fears. You may ask 'haven't I already faced and resolved many of these issues years ago?' Well, there's more.

You may be experiencing incessant thoughts about your past, feelings of regret, a deep sadness and a sense of loss as well as gripping fears about the future; for yourself and the planet. You may also feel stuck and have no idea what you should do next.

What is going on?

completing unfinished business

So many of us are suddenly getting the urge to travel, visit family and friends and reconnect.

So many of us are experiencing a sense of sadness and loss and feel confused.

Why?

Energetically there is a push for us to finish any issues that we haven't resolved yet to tie up loose ends. Our old blocked issues and emotions are now being released. These old thoughts and feelings that we resisted and locked away within us are being automatically purged. Anything that is resonating in a low vibration of fear is clearing out.

We may have unresolved issues with people in our lives and feel compelled to visit them or simply long to be with them at this time. This urge can be very profound.

Lots of powerful, uncomfortable emotions are coming up as well. Lots of old thoughts from the past may be suddenly swirling in our heads. Anything we haven't fully dealt with in our lives is coming up and requires our attention. We are looking for closure and a feeling of peace in our hearts, and are longing to do it now.

Emotional Roller Coaster Ride

we are becoming more self aware

It's been a very emotional roller coaster ride for many of us these last few months. Difficult times but also very exciting.

So many people are finding old issues coming up that they thought they had finished with. So many are suddenly having relationship problems when everything seemed fine before.  Emotions have been running high.

For me I was hit with a sudden wave of powerful emotions that completely threw off my equilibrium. Not only was my mind spinning out and chattering non-stop but my emotional body was all over the place as well. It was all I could do to contain these powerful energies. I felt I had suddenly dropped in vibration. Lots of anger and frustration came up and I had no idea why. OK, I had been triggered, but my reaction seemed to be way over the top.

Normally I am on a very even keel and enjoy a quiet, peaceful mind and calm emotional state. I have been on a huge spiritual journey for many years and had learned to weather storms with ease and grace.

But that did not happen this time. Something was different. Something more was going on.

we are being rewired

It has been a very intense 'inward time' these last couple of weeks which felt very unfamiliar to me.

During this time there was so much I wanted to do, so many blog posts I felt inspired to write and workshops to organize, but some part in me went 'offline' and I could not do anything. Something deep inside me wanted to just be still, integrate and allow everything to flow.

The difficulty was one part of me felt energized and wanted to do things and another part was holding me back. A very confusing time for my mind.

When I intuitively asked for an insight as to what was happening, I received it. I was being guided to rest for a reason and found many others experiencing the same thing.

We are all transforming. With the higher vibrational energies coming in, our bodies are busy being upgraded. Our bodies need major repair work to not only become whole and healed again but go back to our original human design. From 2 stands of DNA to 12 strands. We are going from limited consciousness to fully conscious human beings.

When we install new software in our computers, we aren't able to use it while this is in process. Imagine upgrading a human system and still using it! That is exactly what is happening to us. Somehow we still have to prepare meals, drive, work, look after our children and do our normal day to day things. Quite unbelievable when you think about it.

Hang in there. It will all be worth it. We can't see how it will all work out especially when it seems everything is falling apart around us, but it will. Divine intervention is here and is busy intervening. Each of us came here to assist in some way and we will suddenly 'remember' and know what we have come here to do.

It's messy, painful and intense at the moment (wow, sounds just like giving birth!) but we are transitioning out of a very dark era of humanity and blasting forward to create heaven on earth. Choosing to come here to assist, at this incredibly difficult time, was a very brave decision on our part. What incredible stories, experiences, and wisdom we'll be able to share!

Being Comfortable with Being Uncomfortable

One of the biggest life lessons I ever learned was to become 'comfortable with being uncomfortable'. I realized one day that I had been looking at some things in life completely the wrong way and it had affected me greatly.

We were sitting outside eating our lunch enjoying the fantastic view, when my partner suddenly said to me 'do you realize that you are not comfortable being uncomfortable?'

This stopped me in my tracks. We were discussing how I usually became drained whenever I helped others. His statement, once it sunk in, gave me a huge realization about myself.

All my life I wanted to 'help' people. I seemed to feel their pain. With my partner's observation about me I suddenly realized that their discomfort made me so uncomfortable that I was actually helping me by making them comfortable again!

Wow. This shook me to the core! It made me question my true motivations throughout my life. I had to sit with this for a bit and sort it all out.

The Magic of going into our Feelings

After my last post I was thinking 'finally, now I know how to stay in a great state!' Funny how life never seems to unfold like we think it will.

I woke up two days ago feeling very flat, totally uninspired and with no desire to do anything. Nothing I did seemed to alter how I felt. Not even baking something yummy, which usually works to uplift and inspire me.

This feeling was very familiar to me and I did not like it one bit. There was no reason I could think of why I would feel this way.

I couldn't get out of this state no matter how hard I tried so I just grabbed my computer and started writing. Normally, I have a strong idea of what I want to communicate, feel compelled to write and go from there. This time there was nothing in my mind at all.

I was really surprised what my fingers were typing. The answer was right there in front of me. Funny enough, I had this insight years ago but had totally forgotten it.

This is what I wrote:

When we allow ourselves to go to the depth of how we feel with no resistance, even if it makes us extremely uncomfortable, we end up going through a gateway. By fully allowing this quiet, deep, inward experience to happen we go through the entire feeling. At the other side of this gateway we feel completely different. We are left with a new perspective, wisdom and insight.

As I was writing this my mood suddenly lifted and bliss and excitement returned. I felt really alive again. I don't understand why I had this experience but am very happy that it enabled me to remember this again.

So often we want to pick and choose how we feel at any given moment as if we are choosing what clothes we want to wear. Life just isn't like that!

I had to remember that all feelings are important and potential gateways. They are there to guide and steer us in the direction we are meant to go. Feelings are the language of our soul.

Feeling Excited

Are you feeling the excitement in the air?

For just over a week I have felt a huge excitement building up inside of me. My life has not changed in any way externally but my feelings sense something new is happening. This excitement is very powerful and I feel a huge expansion within myself. Suddenly deep desires are opening up within my heart and soul that have been dormant for a very long time.

I am weaving in and out of this and when I don't feel it I just go deep inside and say 'feel excited' and am instantly centered again and the feeling is back.

I am not the only one experiencing this. So many people around me are feeling it too. Everything we have ever dreamed of suddenly seems possible. It feels as if a whole new world has opened up and we are no longer 'stuck'. We are free. Finally.

I am sensing strongly that we are leaving our old world behind and a new one is beginning. Images come to my mind that we are in the process of moving out of our old house. We are saying goodbye to this old place that has been our home for a very long time. Our new house is being prepared for us and we have brief glimpses of what a glorious place it is! We are in between the two. If we attach too much to the old house and the way we used to live it is very uncomfortable. Lots of dramas and emotions. Our intuition knows what is coming up ahead for all of us and the excitement is building.